A hard week, but some inspiration!

This week has been very tiring.

No one particular reason, just very hard. Had trouble sleeping early in the week (combined with having to get up early for work), mixed with Kelly being sick, and the weather killing my nose (I’ve had at lest 6 bloody noses this week).

I’m still waiting for my hormones to fully start HRT. Not sure what the holdup is, but the holidays really messed that up.

Early December I was given an anti-testosterone, but to get estrogen my doctor said she needed a letter from my therapist. This is after having to wait three weeks to see my doctor in the first place (which ended up being over a month after I started living as a women full time). I was two weeks out from the therapist which once I finally got in gladly wrote a letter for me. A week later (Christmas week) when I enquired I found out the doctor had not yet received the letter. Contacted my therapist and had her fax it, again, to the number they wanted. Which she gladly did that day. They finally told me they got the letter on New Years Eve but the doctor was out so I had to wait until Monday. Monday came and went and finally I sent them a message on Friday to enquire about it. Hopefully I can get started early next week since I can’t get in to see my doctor until the end of January.

I’m fairly patient, but I find myself sort of stuck in my transition until I can start HRT. I don’t even want to consider any surgeries until I can start to see how my body changes to make better informed decisions about what I will want to do. Which alone is months to years being on hormones.

It’s difficult, and silly, that I have to go through these hoops to do what I already know I want/need to do. Especially for HRT which is the time clock everyone uses to determine my validity of Gender Dysphoria. Insurances generally need to see that I’m on estrogen for at least 6 months (if not 12) before they will cover surgeries of any type. You almost always have to wait at least a year before you can have your GRS. It can be frustrating, and I’m only at the beginning. This is a long road, and one that people could be making easier but are not.

On a more positive note, I had my first laser treatment last weekend on my face, neck, and underarms. I know the first treatment almost always shows nothing and that it’s going to take a while, but so far it has helped a tiny bit. It really hurt! It was this funny needle like pain. Nothing that lasted beyond a moment, but it builds up with each zap until you need to take a moment to let your skin rest.

Last night I finally got to sleep a bit. I also watched a short anime movie, Little Witch Academia on Netflix. It was surprisingly good for a mere 26 minute movie. I would highly recommend it (which reminds me, I need to modify and update my ratings guide to reflect my recent changes)!

Watched it again this morning with the girls, and also its sequel Little Witch Academia: The Enchanted Parade. This one is longer (55 minutes), but nicely done.

I’m going to have to explore Little Witch Academia a bit more because I find it, the characters, and their world fascinating. I’m impressed that they got me to care with so little time to develop the characters and situations.

I really need to watch and read more. It helps get the creative juices flowing.